The Dent

To be honest these past two weeks have been really hard for me. Physically and emotionally draining.
Today started out ok...just the intense period pains argh they're getting on my nerves can they go already.
Anyway so today the car window stopped working, i was so upset and i kept thinking but God you know i dnt
have the money to fix this. i just simply dnt.. i need a miracle. To side track a bit God has been extremely faithful to me
where money is concerned. Sometimes i do not even think i will be able to make the month but Jehovah-Jireh always pulls for me
through. HAPPY DANCE...MWARI VAKANDINAKIRA....

Ok so the window died...and went to get it fixed. Firstly the guy reduced the amount of the repair (charge) before he even looked at what needed to be fixed. Then his like come back after an hour he didnt tell me no i cant do the job. Sigh....Anyway 30mins later
he calls me and says cars fixed. Then i go back an hour later and windows working and he EVEN FIXED THE DENT IN THE CAR.... for no extra charge WHOOOP WHOOP MWARI MAKANDINAKIRA- GOD YOURE FAITHFUL ALWAYS... today was a confirmation of in all things, on Gods time...all things work together for the good of those who love HIM.

NIV
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose
Romans 8:28

Beautiful Woman Arise

Lord why did my journey have to be so difficult? That has been the question on my lips for the past few months.
Things are just not going my way. Its almost a year and my permit is still at home affairs. Can they be serious????!!!!
I have a lot to say but these days i find i simply do not have the energy to say it. Whats happening to me? Who do i cry to
who will wipe my tears? Who is going to pick me up and hug me and hold me close and tell me everything is going to be ok?


Today i started my Daniels fast...a lot of things are happening in my life and i just need to feel the presence of God.
I want to really look at whats important in my life and whatever else needs to go. Its been hard so far cause all i can think
about are mashmallows and biltong. YEAH!!!!! Anyway Greater is He that resides in me than the outside world.

Healing Sigh!!

I skipped Church this morning. I have been looking for my words for the past few months, I haven’t been able to find them. I am a broken soul in search of a miracle. Today I woke up and started cleaning,ive been cleaning to try and keep busy so I dnt think. So I dnt think about him and how much I miss him. My sister asked me why u in a cleaning mood,then proceeded to make a mess. I wanted to slap her,because she doesn’t clean. She lets me do it, one of these days I am going to write her a letter and ask her to do it. I am simply tired. So yeah I am writing to release my anger to I can pay my tithe. Lord only you know the power of this sacrifice that I am giving you,only you know.

I am fabulous

I am fabulous....i shall maintain my fabulous self.....resolution
Yesterday was a difficult day...but today i woke up and declared VICTORY!!!!!
Amen
I went and got waxedddd owie lol its been long never waiting that long.
I then decided to get my eyebrows waxed and im loving the new look.
I have spent the day trying make up and perfumes....then i met this random man
who was selling the Armani Mania ( in woolies the perfume attendent)
Then he goes thats for you its feminine then i replied but im not feminine.
Then he goes look at you...you look like you like the finer things in life.
Then i asked him how do you know then he goes its written all over you...I can see it....
I can feel it in your aura!!!! I laughed...
Anyway i do not know why i woke up like this but i WANT THIS FEELING TO STAY AMEN!!!
THANK YOU JESUS FOR MAKING ME FABULOUS!!!

Shake it

what a painful point in my life....ive taken a leave of absence from facebook
i think i need a break from the net....im always online
anyway the point of this blog....is abt delete DELETE DELETE
im deleting you from my life ...you didnt treat me right from day one
you didnt see this purity and preciousness
ive never been this cut up before but you know what
im shaking this off im DELETING DELETING YOU
and moving on and feeling the grace of his Divine Love...
Im done crying...the tears dried up kudhara
So im leaning on the Sisterhood Thank You Jesus for
Showing me when i asked you to show me..

This is my prayer

Lord i am tired of fighting and stressing about something i have no control over.
I thank you for your constant grace that allows me to wake up each day.
I thank you for your peace,joy and prosperity.
Today Lord i pray for the peace of acceptance if He is not mine then please grant me your grace
of moving on. But if he is mine then please grant me your peace and a sign so that i can know and rest in you
Lord Jesus....I surrender to your will Amen!!

9 May

I am having a tough day. Its really hard. Im very lonely i wish i had my friends all around so we could talk and laugh.
It May already time is moving so fast. I am a very different person to the person that i was same day this year. Last year
i was alive with young love...today im searching for peace and joy. Im struggling to get to that point emotionally where i dnt
think abt him 27/7 and miss him terribly. At one point i was so sure, this was mine. This was my path...i dnt knw wat changed.
Im just going thru the motions of life ...I need a breakthru ....i need rain in my life....